the other side

i'm at it again. why is it when everything goes on superbly well and fabulously sweet, something has to happen to switch off my button once more. i'm not sure whether it was just a tiny little insignificant incident which should not have been an issue at all, but to me, it caused quite a stir, mostly to my thoughts and emotions. this kind of things don't usually happen to me. though i think it could have not happen at all, but unfortunately it really did. all due to the situation and both party's state of mind at that particular moment.

i shall not dwell into the details here.

the point is, i'm in shock, well a little bit shocked. never have i thought something like this happening to me. maybe i did have some thoughts about it, but never really believed that it could actually happen. and it did.

the thing is, i'm not sure whether to see it as an obvious sign that i should start being cautious about something, or from a different point of view, did it actually give me a pang of realization about my own self? would the result of the incident be any different had i reacted not the way i always do? it made me wonder that there is a possibility that i’m the one who’s in the wrong. is that even possible? it feels like i’m being pulled to the other side! more and more i feel like my grip is slipping from what i’ve been holding on to all these while. or is it something that is holding me on and is starting to let me go.

but then again, is it likely that the other side wouldn't be so bad after all?

..you know what sides i’m talking about right, da?